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Shit .. not again!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Okay so I just came back from trick or treating with the loved ones, & it was really fun! :) First, Victor Kathy Michael Aly & Dee came over, and we watched like half of some stupid supposed to be scary movie called "poltergiest" or whatever! Then, we drew on michael & victors faces and we headed out and started trick or treating :) We picked up andrew at his house, then went to the school to meet up with Jonathan & Kevin, Nathan, Kevin & whoever else then went continued trick or treating with them.

Thats when it hit me , that stupid feeling I get whenever I see that same person. WHY! Why again! Why always at the stupidest times! Fuck my life. I messed up badly last time & I regret everything. I'm so STUPID! Like seriously, why are my feelings so stupid like this! It's like a pattern, when i see that person, (and for some reason it ALWAYS has to be when I start going out with someone) I start to get this tingly, strange, STUPID feeling about them, that just makes me forget all about who I'm going out with. No, this is NOT the first time it has happened with the same person, and im just a stupid stupid STUPID little girl! I cannot stop blaming myself for the past, and usually I would be saying Don't regret your mistakes, because you learn from them, but right now, I would do absolutely ANYTHING to go back to the past and change things. I hate this!

But anyway, after that I met up with Mark, John and their friend( i forgot his name ) with Diana and walked with them to Albert & Hector and stuff. Then yeah we stayed with them for a bit and left. Then after Dee went home and it was only me, kathy, aly, and kevin and we took pictures in front of Christians house since he wasn't home:) Then, my daddy picked me up at the street and I went home and my fingers cold so numb and cold! Then i went on the computer, checked my fb shit and now im doing this and i'm gonna get off right when i type the xox thing. kayyy later!

xox,
Jesica<3